It’s getting to that point in the semester where I’m burnt out. I have no motivation to really do anything during the day. Part of the problem, I think, is because it’s so nice outside. Spring is coming and Rexburg is most definitely showing it!

I’m just super tired of all my classes. I’m tired of diagramming sentences and spending two hours on Spanish homework. I’m tired of the stress and fretting and worrying and playing catch up.

But there are a ton of exciting things ahead. I’m just in that waiting stage.

Spring break is about 3-4 weeks away. I’m super excited! I have a wedding to go to, I’ll be staying in Bountiful with my roommate, and I’m planning on making a trip down to Provo to see some friends I haven’t seen in ages!

Today I made the last payment for my study abroad next month! It’s only about six weeks away! I’m super stoked about going to England and Ireland! There are just a few things I have left to purchase, but most everything is done. I’m so excited! When I first started researching BYU-Idaho and stumbled across this study abroad opportunity, I dreamed of going. I never thought I’d actually have the chance, though, because of the cost. But somehow I’ve been able to make payments and have a good-sized cushion for souvenirs. This might sound dumb to some people, but how smoothly everything has been working out is a testament to me that I need to be going on this trip.

So by about mid-May I’ll be done with school for the entire year. Thankfully I still have my custodial job for the second block of Spring term and over the 7 week break. I’ll still apply for new jobs for the Fall, but if none of those pan out I’ll still have this custodial job.

How will I keep myself occupied between May and January, when school starts back up for me?

Well, here’s my list:
-read, read, read!
-go outside more! Read in the gardens!
-go to the temple
-try my hand at Family History
-study several hours a day for the GRE
-begin training for the Temple 2 Temple relay in September
-Personal Progress
-make my way through my growing list of recipes to try

Though I feel a lack of motivation for a lot of my homework, I feel very content with life right now. I’m very happy with where I am. I know that there are going to be trials ahead. A lot of those goals I have will come with a price, and during the hard moments I’ll be thinking, “Why am I doing this to myself?! What was I thinking?!”

But I’m thankful for goals. I’m thankful for the opportunity I have to step outside of my comfort zone and to stretch and grow. I’ve been trying for the past year to be more optimistic about life. Very slowly I can feel that change. I have a long way to go.

I feel like the older I get, the more I see how beautiful life really can be – if we make it that way.